To Tell The Truth

by Jaymay

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    To Tell the Truth track listing:
    1 – Baby Maybe One Day
    2 – I Was Only Lovin’ You
    3 – To Tell The Truth
    4 – Never Weep
    5 – Just Got Over You
    6 – Enlighten Me
    7 – I Stand Up For Me
    8 – Today & Tmoro
    9 – Cassie’s Song
    10 – For Goodness Sake
    11 – Singin’ of the Birds
    12 – There Are Red Roses
    13 – We Say Goodbye

    The 13 songs on To Tell the Truth elegantly tell the tale of her journey over the past five years. Bookending the trials and tribulations of both her personal struggle and the tragic passing of her developmentally disabled sister Cassie, at age 26, the music paints a poignant portrait of life, loss and love colored by acoustic guitar, piano, literary lyricism, and her vulnerable and vital vocals.

    In 2013, Jaymay abruptly ended up in the hospital with Crohn’s Disease and took a year off. “There was nothing I could do,” she says. “I didn’t want to be in pain anymore. I made the decision to go through it. With the reconciliation of things that are out of my control, music came from this experience.”

    During the time in which physical frailty made just holding a guitar a struggle, Jaymay also shifted her mode of expression to the visual arts, honing her skills in painting and collage. This artwork became inextricably tied to her music, and originals and limited edition prints are available as companion pieces to the album. 2016 proved the right time for this body of work to be both heard AND seen.

    “I have an obsession with truth telling,” says Jaymay. “I would say the muse for writing in the first place is to learn about myself. That’s how it’s always been. In order to craft the record, I took the best songs I’d written over the past five years and built To Tell The Truth. The album is the realization of an original goal. Telling the truth is the epitome of what I was feeling. I’m finally ready to reintroduce myself to the public.”

    It’s an apropos reintroduction to say the least. The album opens with the wistful wishing of “Baby Maybe One Day”, which sets a cinematic tone for the narrative to follow. “I Was Only Lovin’ You” builds from acoustic strumming into a rousing declaration, of which she says, “It flips things around. It’s more about the singer finding something in herself than it is about necessarily loving the guy.”

    Her lifelong passion for literature remains a driving force. “Never Weep” sees Jaymay complement lines from poet Robinson Jeffer’s For Una with vivid wordplay of her own. It even received full support from the artist’s estate. Elsewhere, “Cassie’s Song” etches out a heartfelt elegy to her sister with an upbeat groove and lithe and lush refrain.In the end, To Tell The Truth stands out as Jaymay’s boldest, bravest, and brightest work yet. Yet, she picks up right where she left off still telling the truth. “I never did disappear,” she leaves off. “The story I’m telling encompasses everything. I want to impart myself and my life onto this work. It’s the story. It’s genuine. I hope everyone knows me better now.”

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    To Tell The Truth track listing:
    1 – Baby Maybe One Day
    2 – I Was Only Lovin’ You
    3 – To Tell The Truth
    4 – Never Weep
    5 – Just Got Over You
    6 – Enlighten Me
    7 – I Stand Up For Me
    8 – Today & Tmoro
    9 – Cassie’s Song
    10 – For Goodness Sake
    11 – Singin’ of the Birds
    12 – There Are Red Roses
    13 – We Say Goodbye

    The 13 songs on To Tell the Truth elegantly tell the tale of her journey over the past five years. Bookending the trials and tribulations of both her personal struggle and the tragic passing of her developmentally disabled sister Cassie, at age 26, the music paints a poignant portrait of life, loss and love colored by acoustic guitar, piano, literary lyricism, and her vulnerable and vital vocals.

    In 2013, Jaymay abruptly ended up in the hospital with Crohn’s Disease and took a year off. “There was nothing I could do,” she says. “I didn’t want to be in pain anymore. I made the decision to go through it. With the reconciliation of things that are out of my control, music came from this experience.”

    During the time in which physical frailty made just holding a guitar a struggle, Jaymay also shifted her mode of expression to the visual arts, honing her skills in painting and collage. This artwork became inextricably tied to her music, and originals and limited edition prints are available as companion pieces to the album. 2016 proved the right time for this body of work to be both heard AND seen.

    “I have an obsession with truth telling,” says Jaymay. “I would say the muse for writing in the first place is to learn about myself. That’s how it’s always been. In order to craft the record, I took the best songs I’d written over the past five years and built To Tell The Truth. The album is the realization of an original goal. Telling the truth is the epitome of what I was feeling. I’m finally ready to reintroduce myself to the public.”

    It’s an apropos reintroduction to say the least. The album opens with the wistful wishing of “Baby Maybe One Day”, which sets a cinematic tone for the narrative to follow. “I Was Only Lovin’ You” builds from acoustic strumming into a rousing declaration, of which she says, “It flips things around. It’s more about the singer finding something in herself than it is about necessarily loving the guy.”

    Her lifelong passion for literature remains a driving force. “Never Weep” sees Jaymay complement lines from poet Robinson Jeffer’s For Una with vivid wordplay of her own. It even received full support from the artist’s estate. Elsewhere, “Cassie’s Song” etches out a heartfelt elegy to her sister with an upbeat groove and lithe and lush refrain.In the end, To Tell The Truth stands out as Jaymay’s boldest, bravest, and brightest work yet. Yet, she picks up right where she left off still telling the truth. “I never did disappear,” she leaves off. “The story I’m telling encompasses everything. I want to impart myself and my life onto this work. It’s the story. It’s genuine. I hope everyone knows me better now.”

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credits

released August 26, 2016

Jaymay – vox, guitar, glockenspiel, drum programming, percussion, keys, violin, accordion
Jay Foote – bass, mellotron flutes, moog synth, acoustic guitar
Alex Foote – guitars, piano
James McAlister – drums, percussion
Patrick MacDougall – trumpet
Karen Waltuch – viola
Produced & Engineered by Jaymay & Jay Foote at Snow God Studios in Brooklyn, NY
Mixed & Mastered by Patrick MacDougall

Enlighten Me:
Jaymay – vox, acoustic guitar
Jay Foote – acoustic bass
Nico Georis – piano
Mike Block – cello, mandolin, violin
Aaron Dugan – electric guitar
Elmo Lovano – drums
Produced by Jaymay
Engineered, Mixed & Mastered by Patrick MacDougall

I Was Only Lovin’ You, To Tell The Truth, Cassie’s Song, We Say Goodbye:
Jaymay – vox, acoustic guitar, piano, keys, harmonica
Philip Mohn – guitars, mandolin
Terje Støldal – bass
Tomas Pettersen – drums, percussion
Produced by Philip Mohn
Co-Produced by Tomas Pettersen
Mixed by Philip Mohn & Tomas Pettersen
Mastered by Sverre Dæhli
Recorded at Spinner-Studio in Halden, Norway

Album remastered for vinyl by Patrick MacDougall // www.patrickmacdougall.com

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Track Name: Baby Maybe One Day
baby maybe one day
we can catch a sunday
n maybe if we're lucky
we can take a walk

u wanna be good
so u try
u try to be good
so do i . . .

maybe there's a meadow
growin in the ghetto
maybe there's a martyr
hidin in the hills

u wanna be a good one
so u try
u try to be a good one
so do i . . .

i dunno about anything
my day begins when i start to sing
i dunno about anyone
a day is over when a song is done
it's hard to have fun.

la la la la

maybe fariello
really was my fellow
maybe i turn yellow
when i feel blue

i wanna be good
so do you
do u want to be good
if i want you too

i dunno about anything
my day begins when i start to sing
i dunno about anyone
a day is over when a song is all done

it's hard to have fun in this life

la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la
Track Name: To Tell The Truth
with you i have no choice
only dreams to vent my thoughts
and my arms they feel to show no shame
to wrap them all around your love in vain

with you i have no voice
only eyes to speak my mind
but my memory astonishes
my memory's sublime

i run into the wind
and i find a silent space within
i run into the wind to be alone

i run into the wind so i can see
whats in my heart
i run into the wind to tell the truth

with you i have no name
only verse without refrain
but my chorus lives inside the rain
that seeks to stain the roof and windowpane

with you i have no frame
only shape that cant be claimed
but my violence lives inside lightning
that breaks a branch in half

i run into the wind
just to find a silent space within
i run into the wind to be alone

i run into the wind only i can see
whats in my head
i run into the wind to tell the truth

with you i have no smile
only habits like a child
and the moments i look forward to
are moments i have learned to hide from view

with you i have no goals
only days that dare unfold
like a flower that keeps blossoming
through no will of its own

i run into the wind
and i find a silent space within
i run into the wind to be alone

i run into the wind and i finally
sing whats in my heart
i run into the wind to tell the truth
i run into the wind to tell the truth
Track Name: Never Weep
I built her a tower when I was young—
Sometime she will die—
I built it with my hands, I hung
Stones in the sky.

Old but still strong I climb the stone—
Sometime she will die—
Climb the steep rough steps alone,
And weep in the sky.

Never weep, never weep.
Never weep, never weep.

Never be astonished, dear.
Always expect change.
Never run away in fear.
Nothing is strange.

We have seen the human race
Capture all its dreams.
Every dream we dare to chase,
Except for peace.

But never weep, never weep.
Never weep, never weep.

Never weep, never weep.
Never weep, never weep.

Take your mind to a place
Where Nature sings
In good time you may find
You have sprouted wings.

Beware these are the failing years--
They will go deep.
Darlin’ wash away your tears
Never weep

Never weep, never weep.
Never weep, never weep.

Never weep, never weep.
Never weep, never weep.


"For Una"’ by Robinson Jeffers
from The Collected Poetry of Robinson Jeffers
edited by Tim Hunt, published by Stanford University Press
Track Name: Just Got Over You
do u always have to be right
cant u be wrong just once in yr life?

do u always have to see tears
fall from my eyes fore u 'pologize
cause that justifies my love for u guy?

i just got over u, im the sunrise
and u cant control a fire in the skies

do u always have to play dumb
suckin yr thumb, cantchya play nice?

it's true, i made a mistake
i should have run when things were no fun
you went and strayed but darlin i stayed
i should have been wise opened my eyes
seen thru your lies broken all ties

but i just got over u, im the sunrise
and u cant control a star in the skies
Track Name: Enlighten Me
in my mind i write you letters all the time
somehow i never get the pen to paper
and in my life my words always rhyme
and it's a shame i dont hate her or blame her

look at that im 29
and not much has changed since the last time we danced
and im good, im good i swear to god im fine
im just scared to death to take a chance

i think youre crazier than me
i think youre crazy as can be
and it frightens me so enlighten me

i got your note about the day the girl fell --
a five story window i dont know too well
and i never wrote you back (cant you tell?)
that in my mind the image just climbs

i spent too long with the wrong kinds of men
one went to iraq, came back, but fled again
and i think of them - i do, now and then
it only reminds me, that's all behind me

i think youre crazier than me
i think youre crazy as can be
and it frightens me, so enlighten me

the things in this life we're striving to get
are the same as those finding us fools of regret
i remember clearly the day we met
cause your voice was crystal and your hair was so gold

the need for new love — it's loyalty to an old
though i don't believe it's what i'm being told
remember on the platform we stood in the cold?
i wonder how we'll stand it, one day when we're old . . .

will you still be crazy about me?
will you still be crazy as can be?
cause it frightens me enlighten me

now whod ever guess one day we'd cross feet
the corner where houston and essex street meet
and whod ever guess youd envision our kid
in the back of a car drivin over a bridge

i dont know how much more i'll take of all this
do we come apart or do we join at the hip?
or do we both flip a coin; heads or tails — tell me quick —
heads means let's say tails says walk away!

i think youre crazy, i think youre crazier than me
i think youre crazy as can be
and it frightens me enlighten me

time passes on and we pick up the pen
tho we barely write a word before we put it down again
im asking myself aint the sole intention
to be riddled with love without any question?

it's time we give the lunatic business arrest
you're borderline romantic at worst i guess
i made a mistake i got it all wrong
it's me whos insane but for the sake of my song

i made you crazier than me
i may be crazy as can be
and it frightens mes so enlighten me

i write you letters all the time in my mind
i write you letters all the time in my mind
i write you letters all the iime in my mind
i write you letters . . .
Track Name: I Stand Up For Me
when i stand when i stand i stand up for me
and all my desires stand tall as a tree
we sit in the shade we swim in the sea
but when i stand when i stand i stand up for me

and when you stand when you stand you stand up for you
try denyin it i can see thru
u may lack all things im lackin too
but when u stand when u stand u stand up for u

when he stands when he stands he stands up for him
it's not for u that hes out on a limb
when the spotlight shines when the moonlight is dim
understand when he stands he stands up for him

and when she stands when she stands she stands up for her
and u stand wide-eyed cast aside as it were
tell me to you did it ever occur
when she stands when she stands she stands up for her

when they stand when they stand they stand up for them
so pick up yr weapon and put down yr pen
u cant compete youve been caught n condemned
when they stand when they stand they stand up for them

cause when we stand we all stand alone
so dont ask for favors theyll throw u no bone
nobodys waiting to welcome u home
when we stand when we stand we stand all alone

when i stand when i stand i stand up for me
and all my desire stands tall as a tree
swim in the shade sit in the sea
when i stand when i stand i stand up for me​
Track Name: Today & Tmoro
i only care for what i care for
i dont dare care for what i dont
some are lucky in their misfortune
some are lucky if they dont
even know they are lucky
just to get to tell the truth

this is life today & tmoro
this is life full of strife full of sorrow

so be careful be so careful
but by now we both know you wont
turn a light on in the skyline
meant to keep us all afloat
any mark i make’s a fine line
between luck and faith i hope

this is life today & tmoro
this is life full of strife full of sorrow

open wide your closin eyelid
therein lies a loyal proof

this is life today & tmoro
this is life full of strife full of sorrow

this is life full of strife full of sorrow
this is life here today gone tomoro
Track Name: Cassie's Song
if u had yr way

would u choose to stay

anymore

if yr mind did not

cooperate too hot

anymore

not that it ever did

since u were a kid

on the floor

u were rollin around

respondin to sound

i'm sure

i'm sure somewhere in yr mind

u have peace of mind

more

than any of us –

we all make a fuss

in our core

can you deny the score?
oh i cant lie anymore

if u had yr way

would u choose to stay

in new york

or would u prefer

somewhere much warmer

like LA – i kno

u never could say

“like that” or “this way”

or implore

u never could run

go outside have fun

and explore

all the hands on yr face

markin a place

on yr forehead

no no no they dont understand

no grand master plan’s

in the hand of

the lord denies the score

oh i can’t lie anymore

if u had yr way

would yr ashes spray

from the shore

of the great south bay

near one-eight-three

s. snedecor

i kno all day we would lay

in the shade of

an old sycamore

my thoughts resound

each leaf fallin down

reassures

with each passin day

i’ll open and close

the same door

to find u

thirsty and cryin

inside who’s dyin more?

how can you deny the score

oh i won’t lie anymore
Track Name: For Goodness Sake
for u it's about a good time at any cost
no matter whats gained or whats lost

and im not about to board yr boat
and take it across cause im full of doubt

and i dont believe u anymore
theres too much at stake now
and im going back to the shore
where i feel safe . . .

for u it's about a good line at any cost
no matter who's trained or who's boss

and im not about to take your word
when im at a loss for words myself

and i wont believe u anymore
for goodness sake now
and im going back to my core
where i feel safe . . . and sound
Track Name: Singin' Of The Birds
once we tried to record the singin birds
cable stretched for miles from yr door
near the landin of the planes i never felt so plain
birds never sang the same again

i take the train in the mornin when it's still night out
a night owl sings for the moonlight crowd
on the frozen path to yr bedroom door
i walked beside u between sycamore

i never told u this but on christmas
i saw u sellin trees on avenue A
winter wind knows yr paper skin
went to paris once -- i’ve never been

theres a certain slant of light on madison tonight
it shines on vines that grow in rows roun
telephone wires never tire
of carryin midnight crows

does the book of nightmares call across
the valley of not knowing
the wayward vine of wintertime
and where on earth it is growing

and are yr typewriter words for january third
the key to the secret venue
perhaps you've heard singin of the birds
you cant change a person ever darlin can you?
Track Name: There Are Red Roses
help me the dishwasher's on
and i love you too much
help me . . . something is wrong
(such and such and such)
oh for a taste of your touch
oh for a taste of your touch
that be too much that be too much.
this is how you write a song
when you're not knowing what you're doing
let your fingers touch the strings
let your minor thoughts be brewing
i write songs i write songs
i never thought it was a special talent especially
i never thought i was special
any bud can do it if theyre honest naturally
it doesnt take a scientist
even a scientist isnt always a genius
doesnt take a rock scientist to know all we need is love
john lennon was right
there are red roses there are red roses there are red roses
on the table tnite there are red roses there are red roses
there are red roses but i cant eat them for dinner
this is the part when i'm stuck this is the part
when i dont give enough
i am trying to do something in my life
w.out some meaning w.out some meaning
i would rather be sharp than a butter knife
i would rather be dreaming . . .
Track Name: We Say Goodbye
in a crowded dark room
you caught my eye (caught yours too)
and we say goodbye

no words were exchanged
nobody cried
when we say goodbye

some people have the urge
to follow everyone
to the end of their lives

but i’ll never know you
i won’t even try
cause we say goodbye